To find hidden stuff I have done a loooooot of mental work at the expence of not drawing. I have done a looooooot of losing at the expence of doing only winning things . Learning how to fail fast, and then learn what to do differently or what to look out for . I have found power and weakness in various forms of negotiation. All I need to do now is figure out to apply it.
It would have been all a waste of my time unless I actually found and learned something from it to bring me closer to balance.
Feels awesome to do stuff again.
So how about finishing up my degree, before getting ahead of myself.